Lisa Niemi, Patrick Swayze’s wife of 34 years, told a women’s conference Tuesday that the loss of her husband just six weeks ago “is like an animal all of its own” and the sadness could be felt “on a cellular level.” PEOPLE reports that Niemi spoke in a roundtable on Grief, Healing and Resilience at the Women’s Conference 2009 in Long Beach, California. Niemi told the attendees, “When the grief takes you, it’s like your body is not your own. I’m just going with the flow. I know I have to go through it.”

Niemi, speaking for the first time since Swayze’s death in September, said that she never left her husband’s side during the last months of his life. She admitted, “I’ve spent two thirds of my life with him. … My regret is that I didn’t tell him that I loved him enough over that entire 34 years.”

“I am so grateful for what I had and my connection to him, and part of me believes that I will see him again,” added Niemi, “and I’m just going to have to go on until then.”
Swayze’s widow explained that her friends are instrumental in keeping her afloat. “I have a few girlfriends that are just amazing.

They have made themselves available to me 24/7. They say, ‘We don’t care if it’s 2 in the morning, call me’,” she said. “I was in the middle of a full-blown panic attack one evening … and I picked up the phone and called one, which is really hard for me to do because I’m used to being so self-sufficient and taking care of myself, but the very act of picking the phone up to call someone helped to calm me.”

Niemi and Swayze met as teenagers at his mother’s dance studio, and their marriage became one of the most enduring relationships in Hollywood.  Swayze passed away at age 57 after a long battle with pancreatic cancer.

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“We wanted everyone to feel joy in the presence of our children,” Denise says.  “To me, there’s nothing more frustrating than being around a child who’s annoying.  We taught our kids proper manners.”  Denise’s methods:  consistency, boundaries, and constantly “reinforcing good conduct until it was behavior.  Because they’re going to be adults a lot longer than they’re children.”
Denise Jonas, mother of the Jonas Brothers, in Good Housekeeping, July 2009

“Yeah, sometimes we’re running around like madmen,” says Nick.  “And she makes us be careful in the hotel room—put back the towels, (straighten) the bed.”
Nick Jonas speaking about his mother in Good Housekeeping, July 2009

“Nor is Denise naïve about the temptations young rock stars face—even if the young rock stars in her family wear purity rings, symbols of a commitment to remain virgins until marriage.  Denise says the boys never meant to be standard-bearers for the premarital-chastity cause; this was a private decision each made that has become very public.  ‘They’ve been criticized for proclaiming things they never proclaimed,’ she says. ‘And what’s the criticism?  They don’t want to go out there giving everyone an STD?  What’s so terrible about that?’…..She’s realistic about the challenges…..’They are men.  They have desires…But it’s just about growing up and learning what it means to be in a relationship.’”
Denise Jonas, mother of the Jonas brothers, in Good Housekeeping, July 2009

“The boys acknowledge that their mother can be painfully straightforward about the young women they bring home.  ‘People always ask, ‘What’s a girls have to do to get your attention?’ says Joe.  ‘She has to be good to Mom.’ And for her part, Denise tries to stick to just one non-negotiable quality for any future Jonas daughter-in-law:  ‘She must sincerely and totally love my son!’”
Good Housekeeping, July 2009

Denise and Kevin Jr. and the family go to church, they live a life of service, and spending time together.  “Denise and Kevin Sr. also try to prepare their boys for deeper success—a loving marriage—by modeling good behavior…..What she does is constantly show her boys that ‘marriage isn’t 50/50.’  The rule she lives be:  ‘Marriage is really giving 100 percent of yourself, and not expecting anything back.’  It is also about loving someone for the attributes that he has.  ‘(My husband) is not the best about bringing home presents, but he’s selfless.’”
Good Housekeeping, July 2009